Jaetong >___<

2011-08-17T14:03:00.002+08:00

Guess this is the first full time i am working with

wahaha

not bad working to something i like.

Kind of happy when people love me work for the little paw

first time earn money from my hand craft

guess my wish still wan to be a DIY shop owner xD

may be one day when i earn enough xD

Happy that i bought ciel xD

had a one great month with Xianglin and her mum

in hong kong

finally went back.

however dying with my dad nagging = =

he is pro till i cant tahan anymore

hais whatever is it

still my dad = =

PS: shall look forward how my full time life will be like.

2011-06-04T00:00:00.005+08:00

tired week,

whole week was out and back to sch edited video

and only on wed and today

went out to enjoy awhile

although kind of tired,

really glad that I AM GRADUATED~!

FINALLY~!

i cant believe i pass everything

and gone through it~!

REALLY REALLY GLAD~!

after tml i shall stay at home rest on sun

and back on monday full force

unable to get enough sleep

really really wish i will have time to rest before i go on holiday

but need to start finding job when grad show is next week

11 jun to 15 june~!

PS: 35 days to go~!

2011-05-28T15:03:00.002+08:00

it is really super long

of two month not updating here

guess now is time to update

i will update more when i back in hk too xD

that whole of jan to may was a crazy days for me

keep doing fyp

no mood to do

focus myself to do

in the end it come to grad show

i really wonder did i able to graduate or not

if not have to retake fyp

guess their face clearly write it

anyway soon will be grad show

yet i have not start to edit

guess need to start today

in case need to rush like mad again

really happy that will be going back to hk

on 10 july till 6 augest

quite long holiday i will have

need to save and work to save a lot for the trip

had a great day last sunday

went to a Gackt's Dears house to watch YFC europe tour

it was funny see such a huge collection

really SHOCK~!

so much thing that i wan to get too T__T

but it was really a great time

happy recently get The secret code photobook,

and a plush look like moozai xD

kind of sad when my parcel with Toho towel, Gackt's concert t-shirt

and two keychain

is lost ><

worth of 150 dollar ARH~!

HEARTPAIN~!

hais hope one day miracle happen

it float back to my house

PS: 42 days to go

2011-04-18T23:22:00.002+08:00

This is bad,

I am really going crazy

this time round it is bad till i cant control my feeling

i cant stop what i wan to be.

i will suddenly laugh like one idiot

angry like one mad woman,

then stop

thinking of that

then start to be angry again

may be u are right

we should let him be

but for me,

this is too much

one year, two year

plus 9 months

i dont think i can tolerate anymore

this is way too far to be

think abt his parent paying for the money pay

i feel sorry

but guess he nv think

he stupid enough not to think

think another part that lecturer may just say that

so u didn't do well,

so u start to point finger at other,

then u say this and that

true left just 2 weeks

yet now then bust him

but the point is i will really go mad,

if anyone will stop me

let me do it

even i will injure

dont let me go crazy

i dont wan myself to go crazy

PS: sorry for those who tell me to stop for my own good

if u know me well,

u know i wont let it go easily

nv i will

2011-04-17T20:52:00.002+08:00

finally after so long have not back here

that was 26 feb till now which is 17 may

in between that period,

too many up and down happen

however it is not so bad,

as compare to the past

rmb that time i try so hard till i cry

i didnt even cry this time

not even once.

last friday 15 april

that morning

a lot of my classmate was really depress

after that presentation

yet this ass

make it even worst

i really angry for those who didn't make it

why?

i wonder WHY ?

hais,

i really wish that didn't happen

not being as bad

not really unfair

may be the true will show at the end

the lie nv hide the truth

may be it will now

but not forever

Please let us all pass and graduate

Please give us the strength to continue

RMB WE CAN DO IT~!

PS: just wish everyone graduate together~!

2011-02-26T20:07:00.001+08:00

I realize the one able to prevent one self not to go to do something

regular is myself

coz i have the crazy genes

dont go mean wont go in at all = =

cant believe i did it again

I will finish my story board by this SUN~!

RE: 疯子

Yes I am~!

2011-02-25T16:12:00.002+08:00

Hais,

what a sudden attrack,

wednesday morning was just with full body ache and flu

after around afternoon,

it turns to getting worst

from normal flu to fever

i nv tot i will have fever till 38.6 degree

yet still trying to stay alive

wait for 2 hour just to see 5 minute

nv check temperature

just give some medicine that i also will have

need to recover quick,

need to finish my work quick

always attrack me without warming

tired

dizzy,

time to back to my bed and continue to sleep

Thing need to be done:

storyboard

animatic

modeling of two character

background sketch

background modeling

rigging of two character

motion test

RE: get well SOON

left 2 more weeks

hais

2011-02-13T20:06:00.002+08:00

week 6 of year 3

left 4 more week to stage 2 summition

like so much thing need to summit

everyone is half way there

getting ready

me lack behide

still behide

need a lot of thing need to be complete

always lazy

want to do but still same thing happen lazy

always look at the sky from bright early morning turn into darkness.

darkness = end of the day to next day

need to do more now,

a good and bad news

JYJ coming back for concert ~! YEAH~!

but at end of april = =

arh hope it change to middle of may

at least wont be that busy

somehow feel that sewing is something i really like

but drawing still are

i wish i can drawing until i die.

until the last moment still drawing

PS: Need to speed up the pace,

stop my lazyness

STOP IT~!

2011-01-30T00:35:00.003+08:00

hais

end up fri presentation was not good

see from the expression of my lecturer i already knew it

guess next week will know the result

guess will be bad ,

nvm let work hard then~!

REALLY LOVE my HEY JJ blanket

cant believer it is that BIG~!

WA , soon i will use it as my blanket~!

guess a week after will get my JYJ album HOOHOO~!

so happy about it~!

have a feeling of making doll again~!

guess tml may be will make ciel~!

MY LOVELY JAE TWIN BLANKET~!

it is really SOFT~!

2011-01-26T00:57:00.004+08:00

Back here

this is a place where i can spend sometime write and thinking

settle down my thought

guess i was really in a mess last two week

finally sparkle come and light me up ~!

thank to my lecturer

she gives me a better suggestion to finish my work

although i dont really like the idea of future

however doing some different from a human able to do

and thing that unpredictable are harder to minus marks

somehow the argument of the idea

is better compare to my old story

guess i wan to do my old story

but somehow it may not work as that well till

they are 100% sure that i can do it well

guess she is right

I am afraid of trying stuff i unable to end with a story

unable to think of something interesting

my brain to struck with lot of rubbish hais~!

shall think further and more~!

LOL~! nice idea to promoto YFC~!

2011-01-24T16:34:00.002+08:00

Thing getting worst

motivation where are you now ?

where have you been after this short while,

trying to up time table for myself

but it dont work again ~!

hais

WHAT HAPPEN TO ME

i really wan to know

to change or to stay ?

guess shall not change

although it is 2 vs 1

change abit add abit

make it slightly better and wrap it up~!

PS: heart flew somewhere else

waiting for it to come back

2011-01-24T16:30:00.000+08:00

GACKT - Road

Since the day you wished you could make it all the way
We set off walking on this never-ending road

When you are on the verge of stopping
I grab your hand tight, never letting go.

Don’t cry
Show my your smile

Our journey won’t come to an end
I won’t let anyone get in our way
I won’t let anyone ruin it

Because the world you have been searching for
is waiting

The rain falling from the barren sky tells of a story
“Every living thing has a greater meaning”

When your lonliness drives you to tears
I’ll hold on to your tight
I’ll hold you

Yes, this journey will have no end
I won’t let anyone destroy it
I won’t let anyone else know about it

Let’s take off to the world we have been
searching for

Even if I am gone before you
I’ll be the wind protecting you all throughout
the way

Lyrics and Music by Gackt.C

2011-01-23T20:52:00.003+08:00

long time no back to here

since the last post

this is a brand new year

2011~!

it is also the last year for my nafa too,

although last year for school should be crazy and mad,

i dont feel the pain i must be having problem

to get back my mood

why always so sian about thing

interested to do something that is not work

this is really bad

i really really wan to get back my mood

waiting that push to be back

come back my mood

is it i am still unsure what i really want ?

is it that i dont feel that i suit what i doing now ?

thinking back about the time i spent

i really didnt spend much time for it

most of the time i doing something instead of work

not that i dont wan to do that mood is not here

why isn't it here~! WHY~!

the problem lay with no one

but myself

no one should be blame

I like the way lao ba say,

" No matter how painful or hard it will be,

becoz of you all, I will live my every last beat

till my last breathe"

"Never life your life with regret~! "

I really hope i can do it too~!

let do it then

jae birthday coming soon ~!

wahaha

if i know his address,

really wan to mail the jae twin to him wahaha

guess i really love sewing more

somehow i feel that animator are the people

who believe dream come true

even it is not exist in this world

Believe they are alive

believe in ur world~!

Today is end of 2nd week

welcome 3rd week to come

and more week to come

end FYP on 3 May 2010~!

soon will be feb, march april then may~!

on and on

Waiting for my thing to reach soon :D

finally get my Hey JJ blanket

something that i want it so much :D

SO happy about it~! .

here are some of the thing i done before last year ended

Jae Twin :D

ytd done a mini cat paw

still wan to get the original size

PS: Somehow missing something in life

2011-01-23T20:00:00.000+08:00

I didnt know this is so meanful

until i see the translate

GACKT - Lover Letter

Even now, you’re still by my side
Smiling at me with that sweet smile
When I close my eyes, see, a myriad of seasons
Quietly envelop me

Nobody knows what’s at the end
Of this long journey
But these uncertain nights will never come again

We can keep walking forever
Together, now and forever
This love I clutch close to my heart
Will never change, this one unique
“I love you”

The day I met you, like a little flower dancing in the wind
Is far away
There were days when we hurt each other because we were still too young
But now they’re memories we can laugh at together

Don’t forget this promise we’re making
Because you’re more important to me than anyone else
I want to make the dreams you told me about come true, little by little

We can keep walking forever
Together, now and forever
This love I clutch close to my heart
Will never change, this one unique
“I love you”

“I love you...”

2010-11-12T10:24:00.003+08:00

Back from all the tired and crazy days~!

back from the begin of the holiday

but my feeling still feel like holiday is still not yet to be start

may be i am still in tired mode

and a heart of start work next week

wow

but it is a great experience~!

since this holiday i will be quite busy with work and work still cant with work

this is the list of plan i want to do

1. complete my character modeling

2. background modeling

3. 2 plushies

4. 1 or 2 clay model

hope i can do all this

may be should concentrate more on FYP

i shall start next week hope it can be complete by end of nov~!

i wish only :X

later cant do it again

but it is really tiring after all~!

sometime i thinking whether i should have enjoy myself or not

i seem busy from sch start to holiday

but like this is like living to the fullest

which i wanted to do it

PS: i really wish i can complete half of my animation by end of holiday

FINALLY GET CIEL~!

ARH~!

so happy when my brother call me about it~! T__T ~!

the skin really wow~! LOVE

2010-11-05T12:44:00.002+08:00

This week was scary

rush and rush~!

do and do~! end up tue and wed, my energy down

then didnt do much

after that thur morning keep on rush and rush

finish my animate ~! T___T

i am so thankful

that i able to complete it ~!

at least i come it although a rough one

at least it is complete

left storyboard to illustrate,

background carpark

more research

finish the report

powerpoint

voice record

dialog ~!

Today is my one week nv log in to msn~!

Soon i will be back

PS: Hard work pay off in the end~!

Work your best dont regret~!

Today shall have a half day break before i continue this long journey

till next wed~!

2010-11-01T02:49:00.003+08:00

Back~!

brand new month~!

waiting for my thing to reach,

should be around this or next week :D

First two week for nov will be last two week for year 3

but still gt 10 days to summit and 11 days for end of isp~!

FINALLY~!

however i feel myself still so slack = =

hais,

now i learn how to play and also work too

set a time to do work

then set another time to do work

it is really possible

but have to keep reminding myself~!

I am quite happy i done my plan that i want.

Complete:

All three character and Car~!

production timeline

incomplete:

Environment,

script (doing now )

vector art for storyboard

animate

slot out report

hais, i still thinking to get or not

after my brother say WA so ex

i think i should get at dec ? ??

i still thinking

either tue or dec ?

shall i wait

i wonder

but it is not the price i want to get

scare later gone then i unable to find it :X

wont bah .......

anyway, shall back to work

work more

then i wont be so tired when the submission coming closer

PS: Hope can finish on time

JIA YOU everyone~!

OMG JAE~!

first time not scare of u wearing like :X

due to FUR ARH~!

I am back here with a brand new month

this month only first two week will be last for year 3 semi 1

after that holiday come

2010-10-30T20:33:00.002+08:00

It was a wonderful play here

where i think i can put my bit and piece of though and memory here

i need to leave all the game behide and continue work.

done one character and one car = =

why am i still so slow,

try to finish another character by 12am

Now i realize why there is no undo button

it is because with undo button

we wont do as hard as we could

coz we always think we can always undo

when thing cant be undo

you tend to do your best first

although time is short,

spend it meaningful

spend as much as you can

do as much as you can

be happy as always~!

not everyday will be shiny day

however there is always a better day~!

I always rmb to do thing that i wont regret ~!

try the best to do~!

PS: Do your best while you can~!

OK get back to work

Thing need to complete:

1. 2 character

2 . 2 environment ,

3. more research work

4. storyboard

5. animate

6. slot out everything

I can do it,

coz i believe i can

going to get Ciel next week~!

hoohoo~!

2010-10-30T11:05:00.003+08:00

I am back here again

feel quite sad about my work,

after two interview

however I feel that they at least give me a chance

i am really thankful about

guess this time round i wont be able to get

since i am bad

however it is no matter of giving up

but matter of waking up

time to wake up and face the reality

do more and even more

I can't believe i spend one whole day just to do one character design

however i really thank Roi very much

although i feel so dishearten

yet you tell me to do it

Don't give up~!

I am doing something I want

keep that in mind~!

Never try hard enough

how should I give up

Facing so little trouble

yet dishearten

when will i feel it all

no point cry here and depress

move on and continue

raindow will shine after the rain~!

PS: This guy is getting the life interesting~!

2010-10-19T01:05:00.003+08:00

Back to here~!

after a crazy week.

I feel that i really did not put in my best for my work

totally it like crap

hais, really wan to know what happen to me

must work hard now

even through all the thing is over

now have more time to do it

Finally

I get too see them T___T

it is like 5 years since the time I start to like jae

Kind of miracle and shock

it is like wait and wait,

i cant believe i waited for so long

it kind of miracle that you like someone even you can see the person

you still be here waiting for him

It was BEST day ever~!

although i feel this year is kind of bad for me

however at least GET TO SEE HIM~!

Wahaha

I will nv forget that moment we share the joy together

Thanks a lot Twin for company me the time together

from know the news , buying ticket to going to concert hall

just three weeks so many thing happen

from sad, angry till full over happiness

The best moment is the part when everyone stand up

and we ran in front with other fans to see you from a clearer angle

that is BEST EVER~!

"EMPTY" is keep on struck on my min till i cant stop hear it even i am not hear that song

Power of LOVE :P

Glad my mum that sentence really nice,

"I am happy for you too, finally get to see him!"

Thank a lot for all my classmate too~!

PS: Have to work harder and harder~!

Number 10 Son : Ciel (soon until i bought you home)

sure i will~! heehee

2010-10-07T22:27:00.002+08:00

back to here

one word, "tired."

really

wore out my soul recently

just one hour wore out me so much

today was great too

think of one idea then know off

after that continue during the mrt

i really think too much that i feel myself did it too

can I be more focus on the concept i want

or i should end up doing other thing

hais

4 thing summit next week

while three on 18 oct

I MUST FINISH, DEAD OR ALIVE :P

Yeah

kind of happy I get my ticket

after a hard time for Crystal and me

Finally~!

WOOHOO~!

16 OCT HERE I COME~!

WAIT FOR ME~!

PS: Work first before play~!

2010-10-02T19:59:00.002+08:00

back here again~!

somehow i feel so different from the past

last time i wont be afraid of going to fan meeting

now i do

i feel that we should be going by rule

as like everyone happy

everyone can see,

if do something different like mad or what

feel that the idol will think

"actually this country the people is like this"

may be i think too much

but it is the true

when u do this,

other country will see and comment

then some of them will be angry

then will post here and there

end up everyone angry

I WILL FINISH MY WORK on 16 OCT~!

if not at least 90%

PS: be safe and happy

obey the rule

2010-09-30T23:41:00.002+08:00

Back here

guess today i not that great

as i was quite angry about those fans

like dont know what to say,

i dont feel that they are true fans

just like somehow spam money to see idol

without thinking much or like supporting for very long

not that i mean very long

i feel that they support due to the trend hitting into singapore

as like they go for so many different kind of band,

this and that

then i really dont know

like those who waited for so long

really deserve to get it

rather than those jump here and there like a flea

another i was angry about

that Sg dont really promote much on DBSK

must of the time other band

as only recently

they put up abit more on them

i really dont understand why

they are the one start the trend and on going

with the other band

hais i really don't know

PS: have to finish all my work before 16 oct.

it will be a faith when we meet

2010-09-19T00:54:00.000+08:00

在中---对你是离别，对我是等待

很长的一天过去
我的心就像大家知道的一样
当时间快速过去被遗忘了

如果不是少了你
我好像就是拥有一切的
心脏是碎了吗...
还是无法相信已经送走你的现实
我所有的爱变成了空谈

我就这样送走了你
但对于我来说是等待的开始啊
不要离开我的爱啊
无法再次见到你了不是吗...
还留在我心中的你啊...

如果不是少了你
我好像就是拥有一切的
心脏是碎了吗...
还是无法相信已经送走你的现实
我所有的爱变成了空谈

我就这样送走了你
但对于我来说是等待的开始啊
不要离开我的爱啊
无法再次见到你了不是吗...
还留在我心中的你啊...

不要离开我的爱啊
无法再次见到你了不是吗...

无论何时无论何地
只要是感到累的时候
就回来我身边吧
千万...

一定要幸福啊我的爱啊
直到那一天直到永恒的那一天
到那个时候你就忘记我吧 … 没有保留地抹掉…

PS: your pain we feel it,

please shall with us,

we shall ur pain be half it

so that u wont feel so painful~!

2010-09-13T22:53:00.003+08:00

This holiday,

i should do more = =

instead i didnt ARH~!

feel like whacking myself up-side-down

only didnt three character and the cover page for the shanghai trip

written half day of the journal

and still at the mood of playing = =

DIE~!

must do now ARH~!

while that I saw my biding item

from 500 yen jump to 1500 yen

now my heart also jumping~!

hope i can get it~! ARH~!

Here is the JYJ version of Jae~!

I really like it,

should I print it out for sticker ?

may I should heehee

Lao ba version in kimono.

I just cant trace the rose that why it end up to become sakura instead :P

hope he wont whack me :P

shall send on copy to him heehee

PS: Good mood,

Lazy mode,

XT ARH~!

you dont have much time left

list of thing waiting for u

Thing must do:

1: shanghai journal + visual product

2: 3D animatic

3: experiment animation more addition and process

Thing can be do later:

1: Jyon doll

2: jae doll

3: small cute doll

4: illustration character

2010-09-12T13:53:00.004+08:00

Holiday start just a few day ago,

i feel that it is like already a week

may be long time didn't have this great feeling

no need to work so much about work

although there is work i need to summit by wed ,

really way better than I thought

this free time I had

I really want to do a lot a lot of thing

Thing that I can't imaging I will have the time to do i

i realize if I dont do it now

I may not have the time

doing more for portfolio and other stuff

thinking when i graduated

I sure that I need to work and work

till the time dont even can rest

thur, fri and sat

was really quite happy

see my friend and classmate

from totally release

like finally we had a break

while meeting with regina and yihui was GREAT too

although we had very short time together since the long time we didnt meet

to me, simply thing mean alot

dont mean that meet for whole day can count back everything

but little time spent is better than nv spend at all

soon will meet up with other too

i will use most of time doing thing i wan to do

then next war is coming soon

very soon till i was too afraid to stop doing work

like 5 week later i will have another mad, crazy and sleepless period

time where all of us rush for work and finish up everything

guess my lecturer do know we wont be doing much thing

that why give us a list for us to finish up

this push is good

at least we wont be slacking too much

That day was too happy about the cloud I bought

design with this character

i was keep thinking and thinking

how he should look inside pumkit

since i already have a idea of pumkit

as the prince of Halloween

then i come out with him

i really like this character

so cute, cool and handsome

(guess i am mad :P )

*Flower thought in my head*

anyway fantasy thought is quite common for design like us

but i guess other people also have the same

have to design more and more

JAE i also want to design you

draw it out,

just have not digitalize it

i shall do it later

That day i was really mad and crazy about this kamo,

Which I was eyeing for it so many time

yet i cant see it on auntion

FINALLY THIS TIME ARH~!

although i have the centre and the white ghost

but i still want the full set

REALLY hope i can get it~!

(I am really MAD )

If you see that day facebook,

with all the cap word and mad description of how I think

and see my expression,

guess u will understand how i feel

TOTALLY OUT OF MIND :P

Guess i have Bla bla enough

shall leave then

PS: have to work more and hard~!

wonder why i start to like to eat food when they are cold = =

2010-09-08T22:57:00.002+08:00

After a week for problem and test,

felt a lot better,

sat, sun and mon,

were really bad for me

I am always at the edge of giving up

due to my bad condition

it cause me want to give up even more

just abit of problem

i seem treat it heavily

like as if i cant summit it at all

although i didn't summit that one i spent a night for,

at least i complete it

guess thank to school work

slim down

but also encourage me to work even harder

as time wont be always here

there is always up and down

no matter what do first

dont care so much

at least you started doing

rather than dream at the same spot

while that i keep thinking that

" I can do it,

I cant just leave it like this,

do it ,

still have time.

Must work till the very last minute."

This one week holiday,

I have to done most of the 3D work and experimental animation

cant fail my lecturer

since he had so much hope on us

really dont want to.

while that I also do my doll.

heehee, that will be my break for the work

that will be great :D

PS: You are not always healthy like you want,

always have enough energy to stay awake complete everything

but you are always have time to complete it,

if you manage it well and do it early

2010-09-05T14:17:00.002+08:00

Ytd It is really a breaking point for me

after two night of sleepless to rush for both report.

I finally can't take it and fell sick

I could not believe I will had this happen

at this important time of work

tired over anything come to work

really at the moment want to give it all up,

and rest well on the bed.

finally i finish one part of my work

i rest in my bed,

sick really make you very weak and helpless to anything.

From that point,

I realize I am still a human with weak heart.

Why is it we have to work so hard ,

yet work wont seem to show your effort was put in

PS: how to make myself strong?

2010-08-22T16:31:00.001+08:00

Weekend always a day where the lazyy gene came

Want to do this and that

like a lot of thing want to do

listing down on the mind,

but not writing down on the paper

anyway i still need to complete it

kind of like end point still in front of the laptop

wondering here and there

like nothing much to do,

end up a lot of thing wan to find out = = |||

Think left and right

time pass really quite

by the time your realize

it already at night

PS: From sunny day to raining day

Mood may just change like weather

unpredictable

Arh jae what are you doing O.O~!

2010-08-19T01:44:00.002+08:00

Sometime I really want to ask myself

" What have I really done?"

everyone have the same time, date and month

why can't do it?

my time management really getting worst

the more tired I become

the more time I would waste on weekend

is it due to overwork ?

or I can say I waste too much time on the weekend

the right time I spent on useless thing

yet now i am suffering

Yes

sleepless night,

panda eye

all my fault -______-|||

Brain,

PLEASE continue to function~!

I really cant do it

hais , English~!

T_____T

*feeling like my eye with alpha*

PS: 星の希望、落ちる頭脳

2010-08-09T00:46:00.003+08:00

Time have come again,

to settle so many stuff at one goal

really confuse,helpless and timeless

look left and right

think up and down

turn my body clockwise

and turn it back to anti clockwise

back to here sitting on my comfort chair and room

listening to my favourite music

typing my frustration

blinking with a sleepy eye

wondering left and right for a safely zone

waiting for someone to help me

thinking that the best solution is still me , myself

stop the thinking of playing,

talking and sleeping

even hunger come

should continue work

work till i finally break my soul

my mind and heart

still want to continue to little sparkle in my heart

still wanted more stuff or hope to burn on

PS: I still to be out of my mind~!

A lot of dream,

A Lot of thinking

A lot of unfinished work waiting for me

2010-08-02T13:01:00.003+08:00

Yeah I am really happy that i completed

my cow costume and the elephant

however still have not completed my work ==

soon

i after this i will go and do my work

no time to delay

as time is always run out when u need it

really glad that this second attempt was successful

soon i will do other doll too~!

This are the few I wanted to do next time.

1. Jaejoong

2. L

3. Kanda Yu

4. Cloud

5. 犬夜叉

6.Pumkit

may be next time i become doll maker :P

but i like prop designer

quite nice do help out behide the scene

then animating it

PS: Rather than keeping your dream in your brain,

let it out and start working for it.

Even you fail once, dont mean you will fail the next~!

2010-07-30T23:16:00.002+08:00

gt a few thing i wan to do this few day of break

need to complete the assignment given

complete the cow costume

complete the elephant

Guess using note to write down

and keep reminding myself

if not i tend to forget

however i dont think i will sometime for important

but some minor one i will tend to forget

is it become over using of the brain till

i forget about the another thing i have been doing

or i am really getting old

and brain start to have problem

the way to solve it is to write down and note it

may be one day i will start to have a lot of notebk with me

start to note down everything i want to remember

but if we can remember everything

that will be bad

while if we forget everything

also will be bad

glad that we remember those important

and some abit of sad

and mostly happiness

even some little thing we angry abt

and dislike

However memories is something write in our life,

record in our brain,

and mark in our heart.

PS: 孤独の果てに微笑みなくしても

誰にも消せない心燃やして

(Even if you lose your smile at the edge of solitude

Let your heart burn so that no one can extinguish it)

2010-07-27T23:16:00.003+08:00

Wow,

I realize a lot of thing recently

kind of glad I finally wake up from my dream.

may be i in my inception :P

Ytd I was at HMV

first time I will think a lot for my favourite thing

which is DBSK album

may be becoz this album combine with a lot of different album

that most of the song i have,

but now i thinking back, i dont really have all the single

somehow like no supporting them

while another point,

i went to buy The eleventh day album

which is double the price

yet no regret i buying it

may be i dont have any single from it

and also it is album

but before that i did want to buy it

didn't know sg coming out so fast :P

then recently gt very addicted to making plush

like keep want to complete another one

it is like few times before

but that time i was quite disappointed with my skill

kind of bad

after this few time of practice

i get more used to it

and learn from the mistake

like how and where should i do

it wont look so ugly

now planing to build more

next one will be JAE heehee

still planing the cartoon look of it

It is more fun than buying one back home

making it using ur bare hand is more fun

like they always say,

" You wont learn unless you get your hand dirty."

now i understand from it

it is actually easier to learn and faster

However the sad part is that,

i wont have much time soon

as work is piling bit by bit

Sometime i really love writing all my thought

but something cant express through words

PS: Passion continue to burn,

Dream slowly become reality

Dont let dream be just Dream,

Let it become real and happen~!

2010-07-19T01:18:00.003+08:00

remembering when I was young,

i tend to had a lot of plush

indeed till now i still have a lot of them

and increase the amount = = ,

may be in my future house i shall build a room for them specially,

but i still love them and name them,

i still can rmb that plush drop into the sea

due to the throw incident with my cousin at the Jumbo restaurant

i think is my grandma 80 birthday

i did cry like mad tat time

then the next day or so

i get back a new one but another toy

i still having it

that time when i was primary 2 back in HK

i did for the oral presentation ,

sometime like rmbing a paragraph of word

and reciting one more on the stage with my own memory

my teacher gave me a hello kitty for present

that time i also didnt really like hello kitty

but i still have it with me

i prefer pickchu more :P

i gt this thinking back when i was in the middle of the sleepless night

like thinking we seem to forget the toy we had in the past

like the toy story 3

"no one shall leave behide,"

i was wondering,

did i leave any behide

i guess i did

I did the way like the toy story,

i writ every single of my toy with

,"CHT"

my short name

even those plush that my brother didnt want

i just take it over

but giving name to the plush

mean that you care about it

even through it is a non living thing

but somehow i really must thanks them for giving me a wonder childhood

they nv fail to be there always,

try to absorb ur warm and give it back to you

rain or shine

the face and look always the same

although they may lost some of the figure

but they always here for us

PS: Settle down in the night thinking through bite of piece of the mind,

really a great thing, even giving the brain not enough rest

2010-07-09T02:23:00.002+08:00

wahaha,

i kind of crazy when come to find something i want

no matter what i will try to find it out

or may be try the best to get it

but cant i be like this when i do my work =___=

hope i can be like this on going this year 3 too~!

JIA YOU~!

final year~!

when thinking back to the past,

like this will be my forth times graduating from sch~!

Graduation

is not a end to friend,

teacher and learning

It is a beginning to more indepedence

time to leave this place and to father on to the next

memories always lingering the every part of the corder

even just a little spot will give us memories

although we will forget

it will always somewhere in our mind.

PS: When time to leave we need to leave,

even we can't bear to leave~!

move on to the future and start to create history in life~!

2010-07-05T01:31:00.002+08:00

Hais,

lao bao still not better

even on drip on his birthday~!

really hope he get well soon~!

sure i will smile more too~!

2010/07/04 12:33
谢谢这么多的笑容

FORDEAR

从众多的DEARS那儿收到了很多祝福。
真的很感谢。
在大家送来的Mail里有很多美好的笑容
有自己亲手做的蛋糕为我庆祝的
虽然我不在但却办了生日party的照片
真的有很多有趣的Mail。

现在，正在医院的病床上打点滴。
「生日还打点滴啊……」
为什么还能笑出来呢。啊哈哈哈。

嘛，有这样的生日也不错。

因为从很多人那儿
收获了勇气
收到了感谢的话语
能够迎来这样的生日所以笑了出来。

医院
能够让我回想起很多事情。
小时候一直盯着白色的天花板的回忆
到现在还深深地印在脑海里
那时候很痛苦吧……

现在，即使看着白色的天花板，也能看到那之上的天空。

因为活着知道自己该做些什么
这真的很幸福。

无论怎样痛苦
无论如何疼痛
只要有想要渠道的地方人便能继续前进。

于是在前进中
有哪些对自己展现笑容的人。

正是因为这些笑容自己又能够向前迈进一步。
没有比这更幸福的事情了。

正是因为有伤痛伴随这才是人生。
正是因为背负着悲伤才是人的一生。

正是如此，人才能温柔且强大。
谁也不能计算出自己还剩下多少时间
正是因为生命是有限的
正因如此，才想在这个瞬间燃烧。

「现在，不能够认真的家伙
何时才能够认真起来？」

对自己嘟哝的一句话。

然后，还能够鼓励大家多久呢？

啊哈哈。
直到离开为止吧！！！

谢谢大家了。

GACKT

2010-07-04T00:40:00.004+08:00

Today is Lao Ba

37th birthday ~!

wahaha

Hope he stay healthy~!

recently keep going to hospital to put up drip.

when last time he wont,

which result in faint off suddenly from concert.

TAKE CARE~!

Thanks for waking me up from my dream.

Encourage me to step out from failure,

disappointment and give me laugh.

I can see you also work very hard to walk out from the shell

to now smile in front of everyone,

without ur sunglass.

more willing to speak out more.

Thank to your video intro me that japan gt so much

NICE , DELICIOUS , JUICY, Thick layer of BEEF~!

make me also want to move to that place to eat beef only~!

ARH~!

waiting for your next new single "EVER"

wahaha~!

looking forward to it.

28 july~!

誕生日おめでとうChichiji~!

2010-06-30T23:41:00.004+08:00

Today,

another Great Actor/ Singer had gone~!

He done his best showing his talent through tv drama, singing and mv

Thanks for all this year sharing it with us,

bring laugher , tear and meaningful thing

First time saw you in the drama was "Loving you"

then start to like your acting and singing

bought a CD of your cause ur voice really nice

and just went to visit ur autograph session with my mum

gt in the first 100 person

I nv forget that moment I saw you and shake your hand~!

always rmb you the way you are

rmb the drama acting by you,

always make laugh at first and cry in the end.

Remember you as always~!

Thank very much

Goodbye

Park Yong Ha

12.08.1977~ 30.06.2010

2010-06-11T18:36:00.002+08:00

wahaha~!

Time for me to MIA for a week~!

i will come back with more news :D

sure i will miss a lot of u all~!

arh Jaejung kun,

Lao Ba

and my 8 SONs

PS: Travel to let the mind, soul and heart

to feel other world and culture

2010-06-10T00:47:00.003+08:00

Heehee~!

recently have some idea

draw with this pumkit~!

i dont know why i just like the idea

which i love halloween a lot~!

the colour , the environment, character and colour~!

can say that Christmas and Halloween is my favourite day :D

wish to build a Halloween island for myself~!

PS: Thing that you are Passion with wont go off,

even when you forget or lost interest of it,

it will come back if you are really love it.

It may not be realize by now,

But through and then You will.

This is how I feel today when i did this~!

I don't regret what i chosen

2010-06-08T22:52:00.003+08:00

Recently i was quite lazy and random

just draw this two heehee~!

continue my steve and myself

as like sotong :P

may be sotong can be my logo design,

still think and try out to create a better~!

PS: ~ЯRII~

Leaving in 4 days time~!

2010-06-03T13:26:00.003+08:00

Hais

this is the expression i have now

coz i wait for so long for my item to arrive

FINALLY Today

but yet I was not wake up when the item send to my house ==

anyway

after waited for number of days that i dont rmb

but just noe it was quite long again~!

only i went to check my email then realize is 60 days

from 28 march till now

really hope that the DVD turn out to be GREAT~!

if not i will gone crazy = =

i dont think he will fail me :P

nvm just tml i will get it~!

Just be happy that the item are not send back to Sapporo again = =

if not i will @$#$@$@#$

"Have a NICE day"

which i always hear,

yet today is the best word ever to be hear

chill me off abit

wahahah

my new little white gloomy :D

kind of cute~!

afra and I each bought one while she had the red one~!

2010-05-27T22:24:00.002+08:00

wahaha, long time nv back here

so fast almost a month of holiday have pass me

what have i done ?

i did work,

meet out with friend ,

celebrate birthday,

draw more thing,

paper doll,

some clay item,

doll,

anyway

still gt more thing i want to do ~!

next week BBQ

two week and one more day to shanghai~!

that is really fast~!

another word from him~!

19.
It’s not that “Luck is also part of your ability.”
[Instead,] it’s “Luck is your ability.”
People are not equal.

People are not all equal. In what are we unequal? Many people come up with the wrong answer to this. People are given equal abilities and talents to dream, so we’re all equal up to that point.
But it takes an ability to take actions toward realizing a dream, and the result generated by someone depends on his ability to take actions. In other words, inequality is born out of [the individual differences] in our abilities to take actions. Since our raw abilities are different, we can never be all equal. Because our abilities to take actions are different.
People say “Luck is also part of your ability”, but everybody underestimates luck too much. Luck is not something that’ll be brought to you if you just wait. As the Chinese character [luck = 運 (carry, deliver)] suggests, it’s actually something to be carried. For example, let’s assume that a book said “Today’s Horoscope: You will meet someone wonderful.” You could believe it and just keep waiting inside your house all day, or you could go to town as soon as you read it and try to start conversations where there are a lot of people. The probabilities of meeting someone wonderful would be overwhelmingly different [between the two scenarios]. A person who waits in the house thinks that luck is something that comes to him. Luck is not something that will come to you. It’s a special item that you can use for the first time once you’ve gone to the [relevant] location.
Luck is a funny thing. You may think of it as something invisible, but that’s not true, either. It’s actually right there in your hands, or attached to you inside your body. And only when you take it to the place where it should be used and then take an action while using it, it illuminates softly at that moment. Sometimes, even the people surrounding the luck can feel it the moment it’s activated.
You see, luck is something to be used together with your feet. Anyone who just keeps on waiting is already unlucky.

PS: I forget how long have i walk pass all this time,

yet i still can rmb and always keep it in my mind

2010-05-14T01:27:00.002+08:00

MY HOT KILLER SON~!

really love his long black hair ARH~!

2010-05-14T01:22:00.004+08:00

G Dragon Series of nice photo

really love it~!

2010-05-11T00:34:00.005+08:00

i really like when people say i will protect u

cause i feel that no matter big or small

it really a great feeling

like u are important to that person

till they want to protect u no matter what happen

PS:俺がオマエを守る ~!

(Ore ga Omae o Mamoru)

I hope i can protect u too~!

2010-05-05T00:52:00.004+08:00

Finally this sem is over~!

summited and presented

dont why,

keep thinking abt the thing tat he say

may be he is right i didn't put in much effort

keep slacking, playing and doing something else

or may be i think too low of myself

always think that i cant do it ,

i cant do the way teacher wants

when i was happy that i did it and let it move for the first few step

i was really delighted

however when i reflect back to what he say,

i guess he is right

may be i just escape from my fear

not to do something beyond what i can do

i really dont know whether i look down or myself

or they look up to me = =

hais, however it is over~!

now only can wait for the result to come

while that i should do something to change myself and learn more thing

I really have a few goal

end up i didn't make it

still bad at drawing human

sometime i wonder why am i alive

may be it is i will be just another someone living in this earth

try to make something out

somemore will wonder,

may be not being here

just wont make much different

when u look up and realize that actually you are in need in this world

as like there are a lot of people around care about you

although that kind of care wont show out like those close one

but just a thank or simply sorry do make a different

may be i think too much

but i do think for awhile before i really wan to live this world

make a little history in the book :P

or just be another mini character

trying to help the main actor to put up a good show

i wont mind being a small role

just let me live meaningful :D

i must be weird,

want to blog quite a few time about what i think and feel

however may be it is not that necessary

but after i write it down

when i old that time i will read it

see what happen in my past

what i done

who i loved

where i was

when i become like this

how this world change from my eye of view

may be 10 year later i will come out my own dictionary :P

that will be Tongtionary :P

PS:u are the energy to move me forward

you are the one encourage me not to give up

even u are not as gd as the other~!

2010-05-03T21:12:00.003+08:00

Finally after 114 days

we are back to holiday~!

although this few week was really pain and tired,

i had a lot of fun with friend and learnt a lot~!

really a great moment

with everyone helping each other share the joy with each other

withone anyone of them

it wont be a prefect picture

we had ppl cry, stress out, scream and laugh

we had being through.

i wont forget those faces where we had~!

although i didn't use the camera or anything to take it down,

i will rmb it in my heart

those Wonderful moment we all had

PS: Great moment to have u all~!

Thank very much ~!

I hope all the BEST for everyone~!

When the raining season come,

i will think of u :D

2010-04-28T21:11:00.003+08:00

here is my character Steve~! :D

it is a fox -dog

who wan to be a reindeer

as he was abandon by his owner

and at the moment when he about to die,

he was found by Santa

who give him a new life and home that he want :D

PS: little help save a little world of it :D

Do be kind to animal :D

2010-04-25T21:16:00.003+08:00

Wahahah,

super slacker me =____=|||

finally start to do my work again~!

need to complete quite a lot of thing,

as i still super slack

left one week to go till the death come~!

must complete

as all dont want to repeat all this again~!

GO GO GO~!

found another meaningful from his GACKTIONARY

9.
Many people are confused about what kindness is.
When someone gets hurt, you may be able to alleviate their pain by licking their wound.
But that will never close up the wound.
The act of sewing up their wound even though they may scream in pain,
that is the only true kindness with which the wound can be closed up in the end.

There is an expression “lick each others’ wounds”, but people often have very wrong ideas about the word “kindness”.
Too many people care about how they’ll be perceived as after the so-called “kind” act they performed. But that’s not true kindness. It’s just self-satisfaction, self-indulgence, and self-staging.
When someone gets hurt, a truly kind person thinks ahead about the condition of the wound that has been healed.
The act of sewing up the wound accompanies pain. So, when the wound is being sewed up, the [injured] person would say “OUCH, OUCH.” He may get mad, saying “Why in the world are you doing that to me?” He may even resent you or become violent. But when the wound has healed, he will realize, “I wouldn’t be here today if my wound hadn’t been sewn up back then. I am grateful.”
However, people who don’t want to be seen as [mean people] during this process will do the act of “licking the wound” because they don’t have resistance to such comments as “Why do you give me so much pain?” “Why do you hurt me so?” “Why don’t you understand me?”. When you lick their wound, it’ll lessen the pain, so they’ll tell you you’re a nice person.
But consequently, the wound stays open. It doesn’t closed up at all, and a clear scar will also remain.
This is the difference. When someone’s hurt, I’m always conscious of how to sew up their wound. So, I’ll say things clearly, no matter how harsh they may be. And I always think to myself, “In time, he will understand the meaning of this. If he still won’t get it, that’s OK, too. Maybe he just needs even more time.”
I believe there will be a point in time when they will understand and appreciate this act [of sewing]. It shortens their [healing] time, and helps them grow faster. It’ll help them not get confused about life. This is my kindness.

Found another meaningful sad song by lao bao again wahahah~!

always sing sad song = =|||

SMILE MORE :D

GACKT - Meguriai

Believe...
A person who endures repeated sadness will mature as a person
And now, as I'm holding on to this sorrow in my heart,
is someone dear to me trembliing in solitude?

Believe...
These tears...will return to the sea

As my feelings of yearning grow stronger,
The sky starts to get redder

* Yes, my sweet, Yes my sweetest
I wanna get back where you were
Oh my sweetest, once again

** Yes, my sweet, Yes my sweetest
I wanna get back where you were
No one can live alone

Believe...
My heart is clouded with thoughts of those who have passed away
And now, if you guide me to the other side of this sorrow
I believe that there'll come a day when we can meet again

Believe...
These tears...will return to the sea

It burns my heart to love you
but my feelings continued, and finished coloring the sky

2010-04-25T01:32:00.003+08:00

Back here~!

just left with one more week

to the end of ISP~!

some kind of "FINALLY"

after so long week of chionging and still chionging

and sleepless night

our heart ,mind and soul are almost used up

but here we are back here doing our work

although the pain and tired at same time,

through it i finally see the light shinning on us

as like when u need help ppl always around

i really glad to have everyone around

i dont think i can do it if just me alone

mentally and physically support really important

when you are very tired

really THANK VERY MUCH for every single one

I mean to all my classmate

they always wonderful and GREAT~!

no forgetting all my friend :D

really waiting for the wonderful May to come~!

By then,

hope my kamonohashikamo will reach

and my DVD~! ARH

2010-04-18T22:22:00.002+08:00

Hais,

i really dont know what am I doing last week

now is even worst

very unmotivated

didnt want to do anything

although i realize everyone is moving on fast

why this feeling back to me again ?

really a bad and lazy mood

i really don't know what i am doing

whole day just model a head yet didn't wan it and re model again

is it i give myself too high expect ?

or i simply suck at thing ?

i think more probably i am really lazy

PS: PLEASE come back my motivation~!

i dont wan to give up

yet it is really making me tired about everything

some how i find back my passion soon~!

2010-04-17T15:04:00.002+08:00

i think of something

which i feel quite true

People become what they are normally are trying to protect themselves

not they really are bad or terrible

when they become so bad and evil

coz they have been bully by people

or the surrounding people always cheat them

until they feel that no longer should be nice

but evil

being fierce didnt mean they are like this

but is a self protection

silent or aloner dont mean they wan to keep in silent

as they scare when they speak it out,

end up being pin point or feel that no longer have the confident that it is right or wrong

at least in silent no one will harm you because of word

but more toward action

if a person able to change a person from silent to talkive

that is really a miracle and

it did happen to me

i really happy and glad that i have this chance to do it

may be next time i shall change a very bad and fierce person to becoz a nicer person

PS: although everyone wear one their mask

or some never wear

i just hope that those who wear a mask will slowly show ur true side to the love one

and those who nv wear one shall not wear one :D

2010-04-14T21:45:00.003+08:00

Back here again

need to do more thing

but still have to move on~!

Let move on~!

MODEL FINISH BY THIS WEEK~!

MUST~!

PS: i wish for the better and even just a little change~!

2010-04-10T22:44:00.002+08:00

When that news broke out,

i was really sad~!

That moment i was not in a gd state too.

Really sad becoz

no only i want to see them on the stage

i also wan to see the bond we had

through them i met a lot of friend and even ppl from other part of the world

through them a lot of ppl from different part of the world,

speaking a different kind of language link together

but we link all together thanks to them

Their song, dance and acting are the thing we talk about

we also learn the culture from them and even language

i really wan to see the miracle happen

i still wan everyone to connect together

i still wan to meet more fans support them~!

although each of us is just a little power

but when we combine will be a lot

PS: i support you through the rain even the worst of all~!

2010-04-08T01:49:00.002+08:00

I am back here~!

with a tired soul

not yet return back to the full hyper self

yet another wave come and hit me.

although still a small wave at first

slowly it will grow bigger and tougher

but i have to face it

trying hard and best to overcome and win over it

must not get hit by it

must not fail from it

I will try even more harder

so that i wont regret from it

PS: thank for everyone who help me,

REALLY THANK VERY MUCH~!

you are really a great classmate and friend :D

recently keep listening this sound

Gackt
Returner-Yami No Shuen

As the moon was being held closely by the sky,
I became frightened by loneliness,
So I called out, searching for you, but couldn't see through my tears.

When reflected in your eyes,
I would be smiling,
Never again shall I find a smile like that one.
In the pitch dark, my cries go on,
And there I see you,
Too far away.

To the point of breaking,
Hold me tightly.
If I can meet with you again,
Even in a dream,
Let me have eternal sleep.

To the point of breaking,
Hold me tightly.
The dream, from which I've been waking up, is vanishing,
Your arms and beloved voice is slipping away.

Because I will meet with you again,
Because I made a promise,
With love that would overflow,
Cover me gently --
Let me have eternal sleep.

I can't see you,
I can't see you.

2010-04-02T18:58:00.004+08:00

i am very happy for all this character i have done ,

really love them a lot~!

today i shall complete the flash and make them come alive~! :D

PS: not working hard enough,

but already too tired to continue~!

but i have to~!

2010-03-10T19:02:00.005+08:00

Back here with a tired heart

after two week of rushing,

today will be my last day rushing my work

finally~!

but not as bad as before

as i this time enjoy doing my work

first time i really happy to do my work

but not for those typing and typo where i always dislike it :P

but still need to move on

still gt around 7 more week for holiday

i still cant smell it yet

coz 4 week later had another summition = =

tat is the part i hate

after tat still have 3 week of isp

which really no break till holiday

may be holiday also need to start other stuff @____@

however cant just give up like tis

if not wont worth living in this world

at least make a history or a little achievement

but i am happy that i given this chance

LET GO~!

Takoyaki Jaejoong :D

PS: i enjoy that those moment of hard work

instead of hate them~!

Some character i done for flash :D

Toru

Tako

2010-03-03T23:12:00.005+08:00

wahahah, i am back,

but with a tired mind and body.

however thing go on, Cant do anything when i always lazy ==

but always enjoy that i able to share the time around.

even i suffer in the end.

This week is week 8

still gt 4 or 5 more week for the next summition

mostly every single need to be summited = =

next week maya, hais

time management is sometime that always I am not go at.

always like to slack to do well.

wahaha this Lao Ba ,

always inspire me to work hard.

but unable to fight with him,

he is really crazy~! wahaha

but thanks for that useful and encourage words

make me want to email him and ask him

how to think of all this thing

when you are so busy with so many thing

is it really sleep less hour will have the world of time ?

is it live to the fullness that make u no regrets

however no matter what we still we regret

even we did the best

but glad to have everyone around the make this world balance

this make me think of thing like we all same family

as may be we all come out from same people

and slowly it expand to having different race, culture and religious

2010/02/21 21:28

健全的去彻夜工作

FORDEAR

终于，VISUALIVE DVD的2ch的工作也到了收尾阶段。
彻夜工作进入到了第3天。
嘛，中间还夹杂着训练
所以脑子也得到了一定的休息……

但对于身体来说到底还是很艰难啊。
嘛，这也像是修行一样啊。

我们家的Staff们也很担心，有好多人都进进出出的看看我的状态。
第一次看到这个作品的Staff，好久都是保持站着在那儿发呆的样子。
那是当然的……
因为至今为止谁也没看过没听过这样的东西。

好了，终于编辑已经完成，进入了第3部分。
今晚对于我们，似乎能够把所有的结束。
不对，绝对能够结束吧。
如果今天不能够完成的话发售日又会延后。

虽然这么说……真的，大家真的为此这么的加油了呢。
当然，不只是Staff。
非常耐心的等待着的Fan的大家，真的从心底里感谢着你们。
真的，真的
谢谢。

多一个人也好，想让他接触到这个作品。
多一个男人也好
多一个女人也好
多一个孩子也好。

从构想到现在的3年
拼上性命完成的作品，多一个人也好想让他看到。
正是因为不知道自己还能留下多少作品
所以才要拼上性命去做。

没有什么能够约定的明天
没有什么能够保证的生命
正是如此，才要专注于现在这个瞬间去生存。
无论如何的艰辛，如何的痛苦
无论面对着什么都要正经的去面对。
这就是我所选择的生存方式。

世界就是世界（不会改变）
如果出生的时代不一样
出生的国家不一样
也许就会选择即使讨厌也必须去做的这种生活方式。
这么想的时候
就会觉得单是能够自己选择生存方式就已经真的很幸福了。

绝对不是轻松的
但是这种生存方式……很开心哟。
最最最开心的！！！！！

要不要一起来试试呢？？
当然，即使现在开始也不迟。

大家每个人都拥有的东西。
那就是，无论如何有着界限的时间。
那就是，总有一天会消亡的生命。
即使是发着呆，总有一天，那盏灯也肯定会消失。
既然如此，为何不自己选择自己燃烧的方式
然后要比任何人都要闪耀着照亮周围的一切呢？
我是这么想的。

也有着觉得热得难受的家伙。
啊啊，了解。
的确很热哟。

这样的生存方式……这么想的家伙肯定是有的。
很愉快的哟～，不过不试试的话是不会明白的呢。

想变得灼热的家伙就跟着来吧。

正是因为处在这样冷淡的时代。
正是因为处在这样腐朽的时代。
正是因为如此，这样生存方式才更有意义。

知道那些泛滥的信息是没有意义的。
只有体现出来，才能够响彻心中的钟。

Yossha～～～～！！！！！！！！！！
要回到作业了哟。

等着哟～～～～～～～～～～～～～！！！！！！！！！
还差一点儿！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

正是因为争艳开放所以才是花……
正是因为落下飞散所以才华美……
直到最后的瞬间
都敬畏着飞散
烂漫盛开的花在哪儿呢？

人生如花
大家……尽情争艳绽放！！！！！！！

GACKT

i still like his previous hair style ARH~!

PS: No longer want to hate,

try to forget

as we wont have all the time in the world to make everyone satisfy

try to forgive and try not to be angry

you are still the best in SUIT~! :D

2010-02-19T23:46:00.004+08:00

Today is another SURPRISE DAY~!

never had two day of celebration~!

Meet with Twin at tampines at 3pm

she was happily dress with G hoody

then we two went to have mac

then went to look around

coz need to wait for juan to release from work

at first i was thinking it can't be mell not coming for today

although she told me that on 19th she have something on ,

while she need to rush her work

Found Kiiroitori at the shop and brought it.

then saw mameshiba again

went to get two so luck get tight bean and chill bean

thanks to crystal lucky touch wahaha

then went to walk to popular and crystal

keep asking me to call mell

then mell pick up my call

i ask her where u

then she say she going to reach home

then i say orh, then i ask how is her work

then she say she still at sch,

have not go yet

then i wonder why she say she going home then still at home

then didnt continue to ask

as she say her hp bill will be ex

now i rmb that she always wont care abt the phone bill when it come to friend wahah :P

after that juan give her a call ,

next we went toilet first then meet with juan

juan give me a big hug wahaha

then went to sushi tei to have dinner

when we gradually move into the restaurant

the waitress want to give the outside seat

however crystal say that she dont like to sit outside

then we went in

slowly pass by one by one cable

and suddenly saw MELL APPEAR

while i look to the left with FANG & YAN~!

REALLY BLANK OUT AND SHOCK AT THE SAME TIME

Cant believe they will appear

surpise more for Fang and Yan~!

then saw all the board being place on the back of the wall

really nice and happy

first time receive so many block at one goal

plus a lovely little card by Yan

and more SURPRISE was my SUPER BIG DUCKY~!

cause that time i really sad ,

when i didnt see it any more

still wan to check a few time

and even ask for it

( LOL the funny part is crystal and mell keep asking me whether will I be sad about it or not)

now i am not~!

and it become my great surprise~!

wa that one i really nearly wan to cry

TOO TOUCH~!

cant really describe that feeling at that moment

only blank out

but really really EXTREME HAPPY ABOUT IT

cant believe it in in front of my eye~!

then we order for our meal

dont noe what happen

the waitress take the wrong order and end up short of food

although this happen

everyone continue to stay happy and finish the food

then wanted to eat dessert

however they say u sure u wan to eat dessert

while crystal say let me eat

then i think twice

better not to eat the dessert

may be later can go outside for better ice cream :P

then crystal and fang went to toilet

while we four continue to take photo and chat at the same time

suddenly they are back with FRUIT CAKE

with CANDLE of 21~!

Another BIG SURPRISE again~!

really glad i didnt ate the dessert~!

then juan, mell and yan went off first

while we three went to have our first FROLICK SESSION

LOL

after so long then have the first cup

not bad quite nice

and have a short chat

then head on to our way home

I really NEVER THANKS ENOUGH~!

THIS IS REALLY MEMORABLE TWO DAY I HAVE~!

so many first time and surprise~!

HAVING U ALL AROUND really HAPPY AND EXCITED~!

I WILL CONTINUE TO SHINE LIKE A SUN FLOWER :D

Juan's little gift for us :D

cant see all the heart she give us wahaha

left one was the BIG KAMO much bigger than mine wahaha~!

Yan's birthday card fill with all my name~! :D

mell's Birthday Board :D

Crystal's Birthday Board :D

Juan 's Birthday board :D

PS: GREAT DAYS WITH EVERYONE WISHES ~!

LOVE YOU GIRLS AND GUYS :D

2010-02-19T00:46:00.003+08:00

Today really a great day for me~!

although the long period of lesson~!

I was really surprise by the suddenly attack by the florist sending a bouquet of flower to me

this really my first time get flower :D

Really Must thanks a lot to Ryan & Wei Lee~!

After class went to have lunch together at shabu shabu Buffet at Ebisboshi at illmua

with twelve classmates :D

more like a reunion meal we having

really a mad, fun and happy session

ending with the终级密码~!

After that went back to sch print my thing and summit

end up didnt summit my work,

coz my teacher reject it ==~!

nvm i shall summit next time

then went to meet with xiang as she need to print finish her thing

after that went to meet regina and yihui at hot pot there

they gave me a three balloon :D

thinking to make me shy

instead i just continue to make myself worst :P

continue our madness eating

end up everyone was really full

only when the dessert part where only left we three continue to eat

until the close up with the last order

then xiang left while we three went to continue our arcade session

really mad,

yihui was obsessed with that game while regina playing with the three colour game

wanted to play drum,

but keep on fail = O =

end up give up and watch them play

the balloon accidently being flew up

after everything

we borrow a ladder to climb to take them back :D

although kind of late

but i still enjoy today a lot :D

THANKS VERY MUCH FOR EVERYONE WISH ~!

WISH EVERYONE STAY HAPPY, HEALTHY & PRETTY OR HANDSOME~!

balloon from Yihui and regina :D

PS: Simple thing delight the whole world :D

2010-02-16T21:04:00.002+08:00

last fri ,

i was really happy to meet with regina, yihui and xianglin :D

it was really happy about it

coz long time nv meet with them :D

first we went to check up first

then went to bugis street shop around,

then went to illuma then meet up with xiang

after that we went to suntec continue to shop

non stop found a lot of cheap thing

coz chinese new year going to holiday for few day

then they grab a lot of cheap books while regina grab her bicycle :D

although didnt able to eat the steamboat but we had kfc instead wahaha

nvm , i shall wait till this coming thur :D

waiting for u all~!

went to toilet have a crazy photo taking session

really mad de we :P

PS: Time help me mark those memory in my mind

Jae~!

wish u always happy and health :D

smile more

2010-02-11T22:36:00.002+08:00

Wow 800 post I have created heehee~!

kind of happy about it

still oct 2006 i was start with this blog till now

already 3 year 4 months~!

i must be posting a lot of

kind of happy that my kamonohashi that i wanted is going to shipping to singapore soon~!

Thanks a lot SHIHUI~!

that REALLY a big help :D

back to serious business~!

today goal is to make a jae toy

must success and do it.

I shall off the internet after posting this blog wahaha

hope it will turn out alright~!

PS: believe yourself

u will do it~!

Some notepad i had :D

the rilakkuma gave by afra :D
Mameshiba - tiger bean

it is a really lame and funny video that make me keep on say

"mameshiba ~!
wahaha finally get this in a reasonable price

which i guess the offical website sell for S$50 O.O

felt heavy to wear this if it is S$50

2010-02-10T23:18:00.002+08:00

today shall post two coz long time nv update much~!

found a perfect spot for KAMO~!

LIANG COURT and PS there

Finally gt two hurting ground for me heehee~!

how i wish they come out everything

but impossible = O =

PS: just awhile more~!

How i wish make them into a soft toy~!

2010-02-10T23:09:00.002+08:00

Yeah i am back :D

this week really tired = O =|||

coz due to lack of sleep,

while now also spend sometime to write something here :D

always love to read his blog,

coz always talk about how he doing and something are meaningful

always working but he always working so hard

yet people say he broke and blah blah blah ,

haiz hard to be some one famous always get say by other

one important thing is never get bored about it

most have confidence

just be who are you

PS: just a little more time

little break~!

Quite excited about the coming fri :D

2010/02/09 11:04

脖子～～～疼疼疼疼疼疼……

FORDEAR

脖子啊～～～
真的……好疼
是肌肉疼吧……这个

最近啊，肌肉疼一直持续着
所以总是因为不能够翻身而醒来
身体一直持续着吧～唧吧唧的状态。

就快到男子汉祭了……
Member们也超投入
虽然训练变得越来越艰难
但还是总是不知不觉的不想输给软弱。
为了让自己一直都是真正的男子汉……
在这个腐朽的时代
为了能够被称为「男子汉」
若是不拼上性命去满足那些相应的条件的话
也就是那么回事儿罢了。

昨天，见到了久违的HYDE还给他庆祝了生日
看到了那家伙久违的高兴的笑脸……
最近，一直都没怎么跟他见面
能够看到他那么的开心感到真的很幸福。

工作结束之后奏多也是跑来跑去的（kya~~奏多小弟弟~~）
很久没有以这样的人员聚集了呢……
总感觉有着什么强烈的感动
已经隔了多少年了…？？
像这样以这样人员来聚集
大概时隔了7年了吧……

那家伙也不断地变成了一个很正的男人（就是正点的正= =||因为我真不知道怎么翻了）
回过神来，他也已经19了
真的是一个很认真的家伙，所以更显得有趣
终于到明年就可以一起喝酒了
那样认真的家伙即使认真寻找也是找不到的
而且能够这样的努力地家伙也是非常少见。

我也要好好努力～～！！！

首先，是要好好的出演完新泻然后就是～～～
男子汉祭！！！

现在无限循环着新泻用的音源
而且一直都在播放着
昨天聚集在那儿的三人似乎也明白了其中的意思
这么回事儿啊……的感觉

当然是偶然的。
但也是必然。
在新泻表演这首曲子肯定也有着必须是这首的重大的意义
所以，在这个时候要选择这首曲子……

已经7年没唱了啊……
总感觉，胸口也开始升温…………
只是听着就已经唤醒很多回忆，鼻子也酸了起来
想着力宏也还好吗……
试着拨通了电话（估计大家都知道是什么曲子了= =）

哦～～～～～～～～～～！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

总之要加油！！！！！
为了能够留在大家的记忆里
多一个人也好让一个好男人引导着这个时代
如果这样的话，世间的好女人也会增加。
好男人，好女人祭！！！

好了～！！！！！
要走了。

気爱の汉
GACKT

2010/02/10 07:15

今天也到了……这样的时间。

FORDEAR

早上好。
脖子的疼痛不能消除GACKT.
现在是早上的7时过。
因为VISUALIVE DVD的编辑作业今天也是彻夜未眠……

我的身体也在发出着悲鸣。
帮助着我的Staff的大家也在拼死的继续着作业。
真的对于他们感到非常不好意思啊。

作业也终于到了最后关头。
在大型的屏幕上确认的时候编辑的Staff说了
「这个远远地超越了THIS IS IT哟……」

嘛，即使是不能同日而语，我是这么想的。
Michael所缔造的POP ART的世界
对于如何表现舞台格外执着的他的人生
在那个时代，那种想法的舞台我也只能说他确实是个天才
对于这样的他，从心底里为他奉上这个作品
在这个腐化的时代，无论被那些腐化的媒体打击多少次
都持续挑战着如此多种类的未曾见过作品，舞台的他。

我们也同样
不只是在舞台上
还在编辑上花了这么多的时间
这部作品也许会衍生出
至今为止还未出现在这个世上的叫做VISUALIVE DVD的种类。
因为编辑时间过于太长而被说到｢欺诈??｣
即使如此也因为作业的延迟而好几度延后了发售日
但是即使如此，当决定要把能够接受的作品送给大家的思想贯彻到最后的那天起
花了这么长的时间，终于诞生出了VISUALIVE DVD。

我们彻夜工作着在Studio里迎接着最后的阶段
虽然已经忘了自己看了几遍了，但是对于这个VISUALIVE DVD的影像
今夜又无数次的起了鸡皮疙瘩
从Staff嘴里不断说出的「好厉害～～～……」
就快了，这个作品就要到达大家那儿了，总是感到如此的安心感。

最近从很多海外的小说家，或者从事于媒体工作的制作者那儿
收到了如此的声援「衷心等待着GACKT的作品」
他们也和我的Fan一样，了解着我
和这个世上存在的很多其他人的作品非常不一样
都一直期待着，我的…我们所制作出的舞台，作品……

再过两个小时就要开始摄影了
所以现在要回去准备了

无论如何，还有一点儿就结束了……

我也不知道自己以后还能够留下几部作品
但是，至少这个我还是明白的
这个作品将会成为本世纪最大的，谁也模仿不出来的
不会出现第二个的作品

Michael在制作作品的时候，也总是怀抱着这种思绪认真的生活着
虽然人生的帷幕已经落下

我也为了不留下悔恨
为了能在大家的记忆中留下最高的感动和勇气
为了使之成为这个世界的新的创造者诞生的契机
要让大家继续看到认真的男人。

谢谢大家信任着等待到现在
现在要回去准备了

把这个VISUALIVE DVD献给世界上的Fan
还有已经去世的KING OF POP Michael Jackson

GACKT

2010-02-07T01:00:00.002+08:00

i think i really crazy

but still happy that i found this website

http://www.frankicatz.com/servlet/StoreFront

where they sell all the kamonohasi

also found the one i wanted to buy

but total cost around 40.94 plus shipping already

should i buy one big on or three instead ?

or shall i wait till three import to singapore ?

will that happen ?

i wonder

PS: i want THEM ALL~!

WAHAHAH

2010-02-06T20:12:00.003+08:00

wahaha,

once again i am back,

kind of long time before i back here,

keep of happy happening

as meeting friends,

but i am happy to meet friends

i do agree when we get older the lesser friend we will had

as the time gone,

we got more thing need to responsible

and need to do more thing

time get lesser to spend with the family and friend around

thank that i have a house and home

that i can rest and talk to my parent

thanks for always willing to listen to me

when i look at idol

i felt that they are just another people on the street

just someone being more famous and people like to follow them

when they up at the stage doing what their job are

back to the normal self

just another person taking off their mask

i agree that we cant treat idol as God

another they create new music , dance and performance

but they are just people doing their dream

going to be 5th week

for my study

still gt 12 week to go~! (around 3 months)

around may 8 then holiday

before holiday come again

as going to be year 3 too~!

now i really realize i do like animation

something that never chose wrongly

today at home really slack

long time nv have a nice time at home

tml gt a lot of waiting for me to be complete

i felt that my work is calling me hard

"ARH, XT, faster finish me arh~!"

wahaha

kind of everytime catch up with his blog

but not everytime he say the right thing

reading his blog make me more like this character then his out look

2010/02/06 05:45

在这样的时间醒了。

FORDEAR

早上好……话说太早了吗。
因为全身酸痛所以醒了。
最近为了NEMURI PROJECT的准备
还有男子汉祭而进行的训练开始变得更加的猛烈了
内容也相当的辛苦，身体也真的变的吧唧吧唧的响。

因为睡着的时候太久翻不了身而醒了。
嘛，虽然那么说但也睡了3个小时了，也没什么问题了。

最近在进行训练的主要都只是Member。
Dancer的那些人几乎都没有参加的情况下
Member们竟然能够跟上如此辛苦的训练啊……
真是佩服他们。

还有对于一直参加着训练的MINAMI还有Dir的SHINYA
也不得不佩服的赞叹道真厉害啊～

那些能够如此认真的埋头于训练的年轻人们
也希望他们能够一直努力着继续活跃下去
既然都已经跟上了直到现在的训练了
大多数的事情也能够排除困难前进了吧……能够安心了。

我被他们淡淡的心意所鼓舞着
只在气势上也能够继续前进的感觉。

「真累啊……」若是说出了这句话
但却什么也改变不了的话还是不说出来比较好。

说出这句话，反而会更累。

「这种时候，微笑吧！！！」

无论什么时候都不要忘记这句话，如果辛苦的话就要笑出来。
这样做的话，无论在怎样艰辛的状况中
都能够发现其中的趣味与愉快。

就会真的发觉，人真的是非常有趣的生物。

思维就像是管理着世间的系统的主机一样
被一般社会的主流思维漩涡所支配的人可能很多吧……

不接受从他人那儿得到的被支配的思维
而是由自己自身所引导，所描绘，所制作的话
就能够想到很多如此愉快的事情。这是因为思维支配着人的一切。

在其他动物身上没有出现，只赋予了人类的叫做思维的系统
应该让自己去控制。

从前一直考虑着这样的事情的时候，写了SECRET GARDEN还有CUBE这样的曲子。
那之后，MATRIX的电影上映，在看喜欢的英语版的时候
被吓了一跳，因为自己所考虑的事情变成了图像……

果然，在那一瞬间自己的想法
在同轴，同时间上有着很多人也有着同样的想法……
嘛，这就是传说中的synchronicity吧。
（不知道意思的人自己去查）

问题并不是谁先谁后、而是是否到达了。
剩下的，关键就是行动力与速度。

MATRIX的思维跟概念真的很有趣。
大家也别把它当成动作电影
而是以窥视思维哲学、思维概念的感觉
再去看一次电影的话
也许就能够明白我在说什么了吧。

在看MATRIX本篇之前，试着看看ANIMATRIX的话
就能够发现到不同的乐趣。

夜晚，睡不着的时候试着重复看看吧。
那么……能够发现这部电影的深奥之处的人到底能有多少呢……

稍微的，舒展舒展身体吧……

GACKT

PS:微笑吧！！！

i will work hard with a smile

2010-01-25T20:14:00.006+08:00

WA a year have gone again~!

JAE~!

is getting one year older in this earth~!

really miss that moment he smiling widely on the screen

it is the 24 year for him :D

it also like the 3 year 3 month for me liking him

wa kind of long time

cant forget hat moment at the beautiful life gt so addicted by his look

slowly gt more and more crazy him

and even get almost everything of his cd

but not only support him only

also with his other team mate

really wish i can be continue forever

so must "ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH"

still wan to see more of about you~!

PS: LET ME SEE THAT SMILE ONCE MORE~!

2010-01-15T02:07:00.003+08:00

back to here again :D ~!

today was quite fun for tat part of lesson

where we have to create a story out of the newspaper article

we were split into group to do the exercise

then each one give a piece of newspaper look out for the news

we were lucky to get the most funny news

as i saw the title " Gods bless blackberries"

i wonder what happen

then start to read

and realize the photo of the place was church with some laptop place one the alter

kind of having a weird feeling and funny too

first time i see ppl start to bless their laptop and electronic device

then it was really happening

here is the news from the internet

then with another news headline found by zin zin

was " those who watch tv will die early"

then the one sentence was really funny,

which is " it is ironic to see tv set getting thinner , while the people getting fatter ."

God bless this BlackBerry

An Anglican church in London, England has done what e-mail addicts and workaholics have been doing for years - invoking God's blessing on their high-tech gadgets. Rev. David Parrott blessed laptops and smart phones on the altar of the 17th-century St. Lawrence Jewry church yesterday. Canon Parrott said the blessing ceremony was an update of a traditional back-to-work event known as Plow Monday, in which villagers gathered to bless a symbolic farm implement dragged to the church's door. He said that ceremony didn't have much relevance for his church, which is "nowhere near a field in the middle of London."

with this two news

we combine it into one story

where a fat man sat in front of the tv

and start to eat his popcorn

while the tv program was his footage

the part where the church door open for the little children

running in with their psp and DS

placing it on the alter

other follow and lots of other device was place on too

then suddenly the father was die due to the choking of popcorn

after that the suddenly news pop in as urgent news

most of us laugh like mad,

coz really funny the way it is show out

then went to typo

really kind of boring lesson

where most of his time explain abt it

but at least he bored to print some important notes for us

after tat meet with crystal and mell to KOREAN BBQ

wa we three eat like mad

non stop eating those side dishes before eating the main one

as it was quite slow when it come

after tat juan join us :D

we eat from 6:30pm to 9pm

WOW tat is really a lot of time we eaten

then went to take neo print

where we really long time nv take :D

enjoy a crazy meal and a crazy day during the break~!

PS: LETS BLESS OUR PROGRAM ARE WELL FUNCTION,

AMEN~!

2010-01-10T14:16:00.002+08:00

Arh lazy bum me is back to here again wahaha~!

coz tml going to be the start of the new semester

but happy abt it, coz everyday at home also not tat nice

if not will be call back to work ==

this is worst of all

i rather back to sch play with my classmate

i will be more happier :D

very soon end of year 2

then step into year 3

but let see this time will be as fun mah ?

i guess it will be :D

PS: start a new semester with a brand new feeling~!

2010-01-03T22:43:00.003+08:00

wahaha i now know why i like this song so much

the song is kind of touching,

let me think of inuyasha ==

after watch 12 ep of inuyasha final act

i really in love with it back again

really must get the dvd when it come out everything

dont noe why like this anime so much

even cry due to some character die,

may be to into it wahaha

so here is the translation of the

雪月花 -The end of silence-

With you in my arms, I turn to flowers
The feelings welling up blossom everywhere around us
So much it steals my heart away
I screamed that I could have loved you
Over and over into the night sky

Dyeing my breath red, I kept singing
You show yourself in my dream this evening
The season you vanished is soon to end

Gathering the last tears
I'll change them to powder snow to show you

With you in my arms, I turn to snow
I become flowers that colour the image of you in the night sky
The more I try to give them to you

The flowers of snow vanish as soon as I grasp them
I kept screaming over and over into the night sky
To reach you

PS: Back here everything is the same,

but my heart and mind was different with a new experience ~!

2010-01-02T12:13:00.002+08:00

Two week i have been in HK~!

now then i started to update

when i was back here

really too many thing for me to see and realize

so much thing to learn and so much thing to know

really wasn't simple living in hk

ppl start to rush during the morning

eating was like a competition

they will rush you to eat fast and leave fast ==

then serve was fast and even better than i expect wahaha

may be get scolded by ppl too mnay times

that why feel better after that

weather here sometime it go up and down

better to get more clothes when u go out

food here was nice

so nice that i wont want to leave :P

traveling here was getting faster and even better

although still a lot of ppl around

street was everywhere like orchard road

full of ppl

most of the time have to queues

must have more patient here

thing i wan to get always able to get

i mean my ducky heehee :P

too many information at one goal,

that why i feel tat having a camera really gd

as it help u to keep a memory of ur own

like a eye capture on behalf of u

one year a gone

i feel tat all this is like not that important

after one year i feel tat this are more important

i may not have every year to back here

i will wan to treasure this little time i have to come here

but back at sg

my DEAREST FRIENDS and CLASSMATE

are here to share my joy

this is sometime i will think twice before i leave

i kind of dishearted when i saw tat news

really crush my heart when i know the truth

although it was like going past a 6 month

to me, it really mean a lot to me

really hope this wasn't the true

PLEASE~!

ALWASY KEEP THE FAITH~!

PS: i will be back tonight 12am

if no delay ~! :D

2009-12-19T01:30:00.005+08:00

WOW,

so fast left one more day back HK~!

kind of excited back there

since one year ago i was there

now i am going back again

the feeling still the same

i still want to stay there

may be become that is my homeland

but there also have a lot memories

may be i will stay in singapore instead

let see then :D

wahaha

i gt a lot of thing i really wanted to grab ~!

-MIROTIC DVD (going to grab it when my email is ok, now is jam ==)

-雪月花 CD

-DUCKY~! (i mean more ducky ) :P

that all bah

wahahah,

found another thing to encourage ppl :P

from my father(GACKT) again

he quite encouraging

which i feel that he encourage me too~!

thanks a lot~!

although he dont look like those who will think for the future

more like those dead, violent and gross some thing

dont just to enjoy his music only

but to learn something from him wahaha

found this at amaiakuyume's lj

really thanks for her of the translation

if not i may not know about it

Message to Middle School Students
I think now there are many middle school students who can't find what they want to do and don't have a goal, but I think it's important to have even one thing that you become engrossed with, that you decide to become engrossed with.
Therefore, I think it's okay even if it's just video games. If you truly concentrate on that, you might be able to become a programmer or game developer. The number one thing you must not be is someone who does things mindlessly because everyone else is doing it. Or rather, you'll be happy if you can find even one thing that you feel "I don't want to lose to anyone at just this thing".
So because it doesn't matter about the trivial things, how about you try beginning from being able to think "Just this thing!" no matter what people say to you.
From doing that, you'll begin to be able to see "becoming serious". Finding something you can become engrossed in that works as a gateway to becoming serious is very important. Even if someone tells you to quit, as long as you're engrossed in it I think you should do it.
I want you to not be ruled by people's judgements, and find your own individual motive to become serious.

2009-12-18T23:59:00.005+08:00

wed,

went out with yihui and regina

at first went to go for k-box.

yihui and i meet first,

we had pasta maniac while waiting for regina

end up regina ask say dont wan to sing kbox

we went to watch movie instead

before tat went lunch with regina

as she have not eat yet

we found a seat beside with two girl finishing their food and went off

after that yihui found a camera on the chair

after that i open it up was a DSR camera

the bag was with a name on it and telephone no. plus IC number

i think twice,

as that girl may come back

after thinking back i went to call the owner

realize was that girl's father

i ask him to call his daughter to call me to pass it back to her

after quite awhile she came back to collect her camera

watch zombieland

it was a horror plus comedy

to me, it is really funny

most of them feel is a horror,

i think is the part where they show the zombie trying to tear the human apart

and grabbing the body part and bite like nobody business

chew up intestine and drink up the bone marrow

but i still think the part they shoot off the head's of the zombie

and ripping of the zombie part

is more fun :P

anyway

after that went to walk around bugis

then went to amk to get the hp porch ,as regina wanted it

then yihui want to cut her hair,

but most of the shop close quite early like 830pm

then went to kfc for dinner

the whole day,

i had three med size coke and one large

@___@ COKE MANIAC :P

really thanks a lot for the Xmas gift by yihui and regina

i really like it a lot ~!

thur

went out with Afra

long time nv go out with her

as i can say this is the first time we go out without sch day

went to watch plant 51

tot that was the shirk company whoe did this

however was another company call iluion

kind of fun and interesting movie

where that add in a lot element from different movie

after that show end,

most of them went off

as most of them dont watch the credit

to us,

it is important to know

as after this hard work,

all this ppl really deserve a claps

then went to somerset 313

went to look around

kind of better than ion

as more general pubic shop

and HMV is there :P

but don't have the CD and DVD i wanted ==

then went to another new shopping centre

went quite a lot of thing to see

but did went on every single shop to look through

went to centre near china town

a cosplay shop

then we went to liang court for sushi

wow

really nice place

where u can choose what food to eat

kind a nice place afra intro to me

then we went around have a look

as i think this is the first time i am here

bought my kamo :D

kind of happy to buy something bigger than the ususal size i gt it from NABC

thanks a lot for the red bean riceball

really nice~!

today went out with shihui

wahaha finally we went out again

but to our usual route to eat hot pot culture

really eat like mad :P

the ppl forget our order and make use wait for awhile ==

we had an hour and half at there

after that arcade time

at first i was only wan to try out

after that still fail ==

then we wanted to and play other game

then saw that ducky O.O

then i went mad

try out the 2 dollar

after that shihui say continue to try

after that we went on and on

after that we get four doremon ,

4 yellow ducky and 2 black duck

with 15 dollar

then went to play house of dead 2

while i play guiter game

shihui play drum

then i went to try it out

realize it is much difficult then just a few button

i really wonder how the real guitarist do it

then we went to look around for the cloth for shihui tml to the wedding

then walk from marina square to suntec city

then went to mango

went in to look for crystal

really in a big mess there

a lot of ppl and cloth fill there==

really scare

then suddenly saw crystal appear

start to talk to her for awhile

really happy to see her before i go off

really hard work for to be at there

guess now she will be back home

then went in to a show call newlook

at first tot the cloth there was EX

then suddenly saw the "SALE"

found a lot of EX cloth from 100++

drop till 20++

continue to hunt for the suitable and nice cloth for shihui

suddenly saw this white jacket

wanted to buy

however saw another black jacket was much better

thanks a lot shihui for buying me that jacket

really NICE~!

PS: this week really exciting and enjoyable of my year~!

little thing bring happiness :D

2009-12-15T23:41:00.003+08:00

today went out with xiang to little india then to chinatown

wahah culture exchange program

first we had prata

that shop which sell vegetarian one

xiang enjoy the food there

then went to china town to get our item

bought quite a lot of stuff

then walk to an xiang road

a lot of shop from different designer

really ex, but great to have a chance to explore from it

then realize we walk one big round around china town

back to ppl's park for dinner

then come back home to do the thing

i was really slow, when xiang finish all,

i only finish one ==

nvm next time i will be faster ~!

3days to go~!

jiayou

i want to be like you,

working hard to stay alive~!

PS: 5 more days~!

time really flying now~!

when a dog want to become a reindeer

2009-12-15T00:51:00.004+08:00

BACK after all this week of madness working ==

hais make me really tired now wahaha

today will be the begin of the last week of this year in singapore

this week almost fully book

but i am really happy to be able to give this week to every single one :D

lucky no need to work

today

at 7pm meet with mell and shantelle for dinner :D

it was really a long time for me to see shantelle and

was happy to meet mell again before this year end

had a fast food dinner

after went to watch 風雲 with shantelle

although the show start at 9:45pm

but ever delay to around 10pm then start ==

the movie was not as like i expect

however the quite is really much better than 10 year ago

this time round quite a few character they change it

like only left the two main to be there ==

it more like art film and graphic design

a lot CG being use.

i understand why they want to show this

as they want to express the way how they feel and how they fight

the slow down and fight was not bad

however i dislike the part where they change the character chu chu ==

no longer like the one shuqin acted as

this prefer her to act

ending was ARH SAD~!

like this dont noe gt third movie or not

if not have to wait another 10 year ?

PS: 5 more days

2009-12-09T04:10:00.004+08:00

recently keep reading gackt 's blog

where the fan translate to chinese

however i feel that something he say quite true

and kind of encourage

sometime i do wonder

"how come he can do it?

why cant i do it too O.O?

here is the latest blog

translated by hui恵

FORDEAR

果然，今天也没能结束…

Staff的大家也快要达到疲劳的极端了。
嘛，那也是因为一直进行着这样的工作，一般的话大家都会累坏的吧…

我在晚上的时候，途中稍微迷迷糊糊的小睡了一下
但意识已经非常清醒了。
Engineer的Noppo君则是连续好几天
谁都没睡过一直工作的达人。
从后面看的话，真的就像是Laputa的天空之城的守门人一样。
不，应该说是Nausica（风之谷里头的）的巨神兵…

无论是哪个，都已经不是人类了……。啊哈。

非常佩服大家在这种环境之下还没有把身体弄坏。
真厉害呢。
让人真不好意思啊。

终于感受到了被这么多截止日期追着
最终把所有都抛开套走的漫画家还有作家们的心情了。
应该说，觉得他们很可怜。
如果没有直接接触到那些Fan的心的话
也就几乎不能够听到他们的声音感受到他们的喜悦还有看到他们的笑容。

就是因为这个，无论有着怎样严酷的工作
无论有着怎样的时差
都能够在Live的时候看到大家
满心欢喜的非常高兴的笑容。

就是这，与他们有着很大的差距。

果然，人要是能够直接接触的话就能够互相了解到很多。
几乎都是不能在书桌上能够了解到的事情。
虽说如此，现在的时代是Desk Top的时代。
甚至出现了埋头于虚构还有虚像的世界
只在这样的地方表现自己的孩子
习惯于不露面也没有名字
完全误解了Communications这个词语。

是这个时代所孕育的悲剧的产物。

对这回的神威楽园我非常希望的一件事就是
无论如何，多一个人也好，对于DEARS来说
希望这儿能够成为一个让他们调剂心理的地方。
不是虚像也不是虚构
真实的，和旁边的人面对面
敞开心扉
希望能够听到彼此内心的声音。
是这么强烈的愿望着。

冷漠的大人会这么说。
「充其量，就是个FANCLUB的聚会……」

真正的大人会这么说。
「但是，是个能够认真的玩游戏的FANCLUB的聚会！！！」

我是这么想的。
「只有一个关键词，但是
就是被这么一个的强烈的关键词所引导
伴随着超Analog的现实，在世上剩下的极少数能够相遇的地方」

实际上，能够把很多人聚集起来的场合，在这个世上还是存在的。

但是，在同一个主题下
只有一个关键词的牵绊下
笑着与旁人答话
笑着回答旁人
这世上还有多少地方多少场合能够这么做呢？
而且，还是以数千人的数量。

我希望FANCLUB能够以这样的方式继续下去
不如说，本来，这世上的很多被称为学校的地方
是应该以这样的形式存在的。

现在的私立的学校
已经变成了只能在决定了的范围狭小的阶层中进行Communication
想要接触很多在现实社会中存在的，与现实共存的称之为「人」的生物
已经非常困难。
在现实中，只能把他看成是从网络或者电视上搜集来的一个信息。

要是去到海外
有好多个好多个瞬间都认识到
人是在优越感与劣等感中存在的生物。
这是让人不期望出现的，但却感受到了存在。
贫富之差，人种的差别，宗教的隔阂…要是举起例子来那可是数之不尽。

本来这就是人的赤裸的部分
但现在的日|本，不，是全世界的被封锁的系统中
已经形成了即使这部分再也看不见也可以的
这样的Life Style。

这样真的好吗？

那个部分
若是接触到了
就能够在心里感觉到沉重还有黑暗的部分。
但是，就因有了这个人才能对他人温柔，不是这样吗？

若是把人的温柔剥夺了
就只是傲慢的自我的执迷不悟的生物而已。

我们，如今，似乎会失去的东西。
不能够失去的东西。

虽然有要再次正视的必要
但人总会吧所有麻烦的东西抛之脑后。

所以，我并不是要做这麻烦的事
而只是单纯的想着把它溶于好玩的事情当中不就好了吗？
好玩儿的事情，只要心里稍微有点余裕便能够参加
在这之上，只要看到了笑容能够感受到的事情也很多。

当然，要是很多人聚集起来了
也有因为把人聚起来而产生的问题。
这也是，现实。

但是，对此发牢骚也不是问题。
因为这就是人的本质。
在承认之后，在包容之后
进行着Communication
能够从缝隙中看到人的温柔的瞬间并不在少。

这不是很珍贵吗？

现在，正在进行着RR2的编辑中
从改造人的视线来看，感受到了的人的傲慢肮脏
还有温柔与无常。

我正在做的事情，想要传达的心情
在VISUALIVE上也好，在神威楽园祭上也好
一直都有贯彻到最终呢……再一次这么发觉到。
虽然Approach的方法不太一样。

这个是从很早以前开始就一直在说的事情呢～
再一次感受到了自己活动了这么十几年的时间真是过得太快了。

今天已经进入到了Mirror的编辑了
已经很久没有这么认认真真的看着一直吼叫着的自己的身影。
阿哈哈哈哈哈哈。

真的，这个人，吼成这样大概是傻瓜吧。
明明不这么吼也可以的。
明明不这么勉强自己也是可以的。

但这样的想法却是说不出口。

但是，这么做的意义
应该已经传达到了很多的Fan那儿了吧。

冷漠的大人这么说。
「不做这么无谓的事情也可以哟……」

我这么想。
「无谓的事情，在这世上一件都没有」

啊～～～、想早点送到～～～～。
这个作品，无论怎么说很厉害哟！！！
从一大早，就自言自语了这～么久
总是，这么想的所以就写下来了。

好了好了～～～
要去训练了。

这个工作也快要结束了吧。
加油

认真的男人
GACKT

this is the second one

FORDEAR

早上好。
还是往常一样在编辑工作进行中的GACKT。

话说回来，从DEARS的大家那儿受到了很多关于这会的PV的Mail。
关于雪月花的MUSIC CLIP的部分今早的日记里并没有提到
所以想着稍微写一点。

「这回的雪月花的MUSIC CLIP的CG很漂亮呢～～」
收到了很多Mail。

这个啊，要是仔～细看的话就会明白了。

这个MUSIC CLIP，98%是Analog的哟。
使用了CG的部分，只有雪变成面具的地方
还有雪瞬间转变成花瓣的地方。
除此之外的部分，都是运用Analog然后在线现场进行工作的。

这个，虽然是在没有CG的时代所运用的手法
虽然这样的话在现场会比较费事还会消耗人力还有时间
但是实际上的立体感还有深邃感能够以压倒性的呈现出来
我果然还是喜欢这种方法。

最近大家都已经习惯了CG
所以可能并没有这样的感动
但是对于我这样喜欢电影的人来说
运用Analog，深邃感还有临场感的出现
深沉的丧失感，黑色的深邃感
在这样的深邃当中雪簌簌的下着时的情绪
黑暗当中孤独的高歌的时候
其他的Member突然间浮现出来的那一刹那更是显著。

为了能够表现出伴随着时间在无情流逝的丧失感的那份凄美
还有难以消失的毫不现实的梦
这回把出演的Member设定成为了吸血鬼。

无论过了多少个十年只有时间流逝了。
对于自己来说，无意义的只能称之为无的时间概念。
在那儿存在的，只有不能拥有永远的人们的消失
还有对于他们深沉的爱还有终会到访的悲伤
然后，对于那些拥有结束的人们的向往。

和在过去消失掉的自己所爱之人的时间的距离不断的被拉开。
与此同时，无意中发觉到
就是这样的自己一直凝视的不断流逝的季节的美丽。

在最后一幕不断纷飞飘落的花瓣当中
所有的Member的时间在刹那间停止了。

这个实际上也是通过Analog来做的
诉说着Member们是如何与现场步调一致的哟。
嘛，虽然最初总是不能很好的配合
但在不知不觉之中就变得已经配合默契的感觉。

当然，重要的并不只是Member
摄影师，照明，技术Staff，Member，大家的步调若不一致
使用Analog的话
若不很多次在细微的地方进行修补的话
也会变成不能使用了。

若是看这个MUSIC CLIP的One Cut的长度的话
就能看出所有人的配合是多么的默契。
所以，也能传达出很大的感动吧…

偶尔的，在体育界中一支队伍联合起来
就像是所有都是决定了一样行动，然后获得分数的那一绝妙的时刻
会被感动的说不出话吧？
就和这个是一样的。

对于能够做出这样的作品是非常自豪的
但是比起别的能够传达给大家这才是最让人高兴的。

现在也是，在做RR2的DVD的编辑工作的时候会叫着「哦～～～！！！」
这样的事也是经常有的，也是早一点也好想让大家看到哟。

嘛，就是这样
虽然是今年夏天完成的作品
又能把那份感动传达给大家，对我来说真的很开心
首先，听到REBORN之后想在这个世上表达的思绪
FOOLS的东条先生直到最后去死那天一直追寻着的这个RR的世界
想让大家充分的了解。

时代的走向，渐渐的简朴化
经费削减之类的，「不能再那样的地方花钱」之类的，虽然经常会被这么说。
那样的地方是什么地方啊！！！总会这么想。
如果不能因感动而花钱
那这个时代带地还残留着什么。

我在这样的时代流向里逆向而行
在一个作品里任意花费时间与金钱
但也正因为如此，才能够做出充满大大的感动的高质量作品。
然后，对于那些等着我的大家
才能自信的说着这真的是最棒的作品，大家好好地感受吧。
自己说不出自己还能够做出多少作品，也不知道。
所以，才想要把能做的事情都先做到哟。
为了能够留在大家的记忆当中…

好了，要回到工作了哟。
预感又会成为彻夜工作。

大家，REBORN还有雪月花都要好好听。

GACKT

PS 下一个就是GACTIONARY吧…

PS:雪月花 -The end of silence

2009-12-08T23:58:00.002+08:00

back here,

i think quite long nv back here again,

mon went out with yihui and regina

really long time nv meet them,

went on a crazy eating and shopping day

but really enjoy it

first meet with yihui

i was so blur that i mistaken the train that yihui ask me to go on

end up she have to wait for me at city hall

after that we walk around

had ice cream and bought accessary

while she bought a dress

then met with regina at hot pot culture

really had a crazy eating session

as i was really hungry

then went to bugis to shop

end up regina was the one keep buying a lot of dress and cloth wahaha

end we went to mac to have our supper :D

today went out with mell and crystal

went to have lunch

then went to watch ninja assassin

it is a M18 movie

they only check my ic instead of they two

i admit i have a kiddy face =0= |||

even tat day that doctor tot i am just 15 -____-|||

it was a nice show

with a lot of blood and killing wahaha

i like the part where they say

" he dont look like a killing machine to me,

look like some boy band out there"

kind of like those fight all u can to survive movie

then went to the new somerset 313

not much there,

end up walk back to taka for ice cream then went home

i really happy to see u all :D

glad that i have the chance to see before i live

however still wan to have more time~!

PS: very soon i will leave here

and back to the place where i born

just 10 more days~!

2009-11-30T02:51:00.006+08:00

I AM BACK~!

with a tired , sleepy eye + body

i only can say tired is all over my heart, mind and soul,

but i am glad to have u all gd friend around :D

really thanks a lot

to share and rest it

although my body didnt rest well

at least my soul and mind did

had a great day with wei lee , gin and shantelle

korean BBQ,

wow i had been wanting it so much

yet that day didnt eat much really sad

hais, must be super hungry next time

must be too tired to eat wahaha

mell and fang on sat

mell and i went to daiso first and to a toy shop

then have lunch with fang

then went to china town have a crazy trip

really keep buying and buying

coz really have thing until the eye went mad

next time bring u all to pick up some good too :D

wahaha,

after that this week will be all afternoon shift ==

from sun to thur

then sat morning,

should no need to work on sun

tat will be great

i still wan to go JB~!

i still wan to meet a lot of ppl

i still have a lot of thing have not done ==

may be have to sleep less to do it

hais

found this song, which i like it a lot ,

however didnt know what it mean,

after tat realize it is really a meaningful song

I guess he is singing for his friend who have pass away

he is a great teacher to him,

even like a father to him

wahah

to me , he is also my father mah :P

My Father's Day - GACKT

Unable to even say good bye properly, I just hold back the tears
As if even any minute now your voice calling out could brush against me

Not even showing your pain, you were so beautiful
The father's day you vanished alone, leaving just a smile hanging in the air

"You can find the Neo Universe
without tears nor any words."
I embrace your words

I'll take on the Neo Universe
without fears nor any doubts
Until someday when we can meet again

The memories inside my heart that will never fade away, forever
the fallen tears will soon change to snow

Ahead, where the crape-myrtle leads, you are laughing
This season, begun to fall, is my Father's Day

"You can find the Neo Universe
without tears nor any words."
I embrace your words

I'll take on the Neo Universe
without fears nor any doubts
We can surely meet again
Good-bye Dad

"You can find the Neo Universe
without tears nor any words.
Dry your tears...You can go forth alone."

I'll take on the Neo Universe
without fears nor any doubts
The many things you have left for me
Good-bye Dad

"You can find the Neo Universe
without tears nor any words."
I embrace your words

I'll take on the Neo Universe
without fears nor any doubts
Now I turn to face ahead
always walking

Good-Bye Dad...
Good-Bye Dad...

Thank you Dad...

2009-11-18T18:58:00.004+08:00

Hey

i am back :D

coz busy with sch stuff

but also lazy ==

finally year 2 first half have end

holiday have come

however i felt that i am worst than having holiday

as i feel that i have lesser time to do what i want

most of time being spent for sleeping or working

hardly have time to go out ==

really sorry for keep reject and changing the timing

really dislike that i cant spent my time well ==

hais nvm,

i shall practice more for my human drawing ,

which i really bad at

sianed when i keep working

this week mon to wed and sat,

next week mon to thur

then one more week mon to thur morning plus afternoon shift

PS: i just a little break PLEASE~!

but dont break me :P

here is my new son :D

JEREMY

LEE HONG GI :D

Julie~!

2009-10-31T17:04:00.003+08:00

a week gone yet, i did so little thing

just 1%

what the hell is wrong with me

why my mood keep flying away

slack mode keep on coming to me to stop working

is it too tired ?

or too playful

i do wonder

i think sure i will regret wat i have done

at least today i have more time to complete my thing

ytd was quite happy that suddenly regina sms

when i release from sch

then went a shopping trip with her and dinner

wahaha

although not a long time

everytime when we play basketball and break the prefer record we made

was really fun :D

she bought two cloth

while i bought two neckless :D

and she bought two earring while i bought one

how nice :D

i think next meet for us will be after ISP ==

GO STOP FLYING KITE~!

PS: TONG ARH,

JUST ONE MORE WEEK PLUS 4 days only

PLEASE FINISH UR WORK FIRST~!

2009-10-25T16:54:00.002+08:00

ytd went out with huiling for lunch,

it was quite long before we meet

since she went a holiday trip to us :D

we had japanese food

quite a nice place

however the people around was noise :P

which we always had :P

went to singtel to settle her brother sim card problem

after that wanted to use excuse to go to her house

however fail to do it

as her father wanted to bring her to buy garden stuff

end up i went to her house in another way

when i reach everything have started :D

great to see everyone

as it is really hard to get everyone to come together and meet

really must thanks Si Ya for organizing this birthday party

and the rest of them for the preparation

PS: enjoy the time while you can~!

2009-10-20T23:45:00.003+08:00

Back :D

heehee

recently back here frequently

coz it is time to update more

if not when third week of isp,

i wont have time to update and i will be lazy too

sat went to get my two ducky

then went to ps buy the ear piece

went home to put down my thing and have some rest

Shihui's BBQ birthday

wahah, nice that meet a lot of new ppl

make a friend there :D

carol

wahaha although time was short there

however it is really nice to eat and cycling around

when i long time nv cycle

sun was at home

doing nothing much, spent most of time sleeping

coz really to tired after that week of work

mon went to collect my blue elephant

then meet with wei lee, chewmin for the clay session at the library

end up nv do much then stop doing

due to the clay :P

shantell came over to library and

meet us after have a lot chat decided to go eat first

met with ryan went to have korean BBQ

wahaha we eat like mad

gt a lot of variety of food

mostly BBQ and korean food

cant stop eating beef and the radish kimchi

next time sure wan to bring u all there :D

tue went back so early,

and finally gt my character from wei lee

i can start planning and draw some idea

after sch went to orchard with afra walking from sch to there

really thanks her a lot for accompany me :D

get crystal's shoes and went back meet with mell and crystal

had aston :D

wed,

went to meet with regina

long time nv meet with her

had aston and watch the movie

Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs 3D

first time i watch 3D with this new glass

kind of nice story and food

lots of food dropping down WA

after that we went to walk around ps

from bottom till the top,

then i was crazy again,

went to play with ufo catcher

one time i gt a doll :P

kind of lucky

just one dollar get a postpet toy

however the next few didn't get it

went to the arcade to play spot the different first

coz the basketball was jam with HUMAN ==

then after we play a few round of spot the different

finally we gt the slot,

but we were really crazy

like keep playing and playing

as they allow us to play round

first was 480 marks

then finally we get 508 marks

although really tiring after play four round of basketball,

i really enjoy the time we had together :D

then went to mac have a drink and back home~!

when will be our next basketball madness?

today went back for four hour and

need to present our character to the rest of the classmate

teacher gave us a lot of free back and change we need to do

kind of having problem to add on and change thing

tml will be another two teacher

seem tat five teacher really will give a lot of problem for us ==

then went meet with mell

went to walk around bugis and illuma,

had ice cream with the company of yan yin

then went to play drum

wahah always love to play,

however after playing basketball for ytd

and today dram

make me super painful for my left arm ==

crazy me ==

PS: time always running out,

plan it well dont get regret

Jaetong >___<

在中---对你是离别，对我是等待

誕生日おめでとうChichiji~!

19.It’s not that “Luck is also part of your ability.” [Instead,] it’s “Luck is your ability.”People are not equal.

i really like when people say i will protect u

PS:俺がオマエを守る ~!

God bless this BlackBerry

19.
It’s not that “Luck is also part of your ability.”
[Instead,] it’s “Luck is your ability.”
People are not equal.